Shutdown

I had planned on going into work on Saturday to do some major "digging me out of the shit hole" that I am in. I've had a backlog before, but never like this as long as I've been in my role. So Saturday came and Solomonster needed to pee. I let him out, he did his business and came right back in. That was around 6:00am - clockwork for him to just stay on the work schedule. He does it on Sunday's as well. I could barely keep my eyes open. I lied back down for just a few more minutes. I woke up many hours later. I tried to motivate and get online to wake me up. I just putzed around a bit and felt the pillows yammering for my head. I answered the call and fell asleep. I woke up at 6:00pm. I stayed awake until about 9:30pm then felt the sleepmonster calling. I answered. (oh yes, solly got to pee when I was awake) I didn't wake up until 9:00am. Good golly, how can I be this tired. Otherwise I feel fine. I had not drive to even try to go into work today. I must be in the worst work-funk ever. And I love my job. I just don't like being swamped. I loved helping folks with their problems. I just don't like being pressured to help them faster than the speed of light. And with the financial world in an uproar, complainers are complaining faster than ever.

Or, it could also be partly due to my body having some difficulty acclimating to the new insulins I'm on. A nurse friend (not karen) told me that my sugar levels are lower which is a good thing. But my body might be rebelling from not getting that ever present sugar high I have been on. So I'm in Glucose Detoxification! Whodda thunk that?

So I need candy and all will be right in my universe, right? (I know Karen... no candy... there's always a party pooper out there lingering)

Drained

My sugar levels are down a bit. But I'm feeling drained. I fight one battle only to bring about another. Not sure how to explain it. I guess it's part getting used to the new medications. And another part taking away other medications my body was used to. I suppose my body is whining at itself. Shut up - no, you shut up. Stop it - no, you stop it. Run - Fat boy - Run. Hail NO!

Sugar

The picture is of skulls formed from sugar. I found it sort of fitting for how I'm feeling right now. No, in general I'm in good spirits. But my blood sugar levels are horrendous. Sugar is killing me. I am diabetic and have been so for 12 years. But really, it's been since I was a teen and was just not diagnosed. Many iterations of medications later, I find that more serious insulin strategies are in my future. I've maxed out the oral medications, done the non-insulin injectable, back to oral and extended release insulin. My body just seems to hate them and refuses to respond. I normalize for a while. Usually months on end, but lately it's been just months or recently even weeks. My latest medication was a combination insulin and oral medications that lasted about 4 weeks and I saw my sugar levels drop, then pop back up to "unacceptable". So, I have been to an endocrinologist with whom I will be working with for the foreseeable future. I am also taking other medications for other issues. The doctor took me off those and we are basically going back to scratch. Today I started on a mixture of a short extended release insulin that I blend with a quick release insulin. The very first thing I noticed was NOTHING. The next thing I noticed was that I was dog tired by 1:00pm. I suppose that should be expected. I'll pace it out and deal with the fatigue. I tend to get all excited when I see my sugar levels drop to normal and get to feeling much better. Right now, I feel like my body is pumping syrup/molasses through my veins. It's tiring. It makes me sleepy. It makes it hard to think. It makes it very hard to be nice to stupid people. *Thank you Lexapro* And now the weatherman is talking snow. Jesus Christmas, right now I just want to spank a Grinch. I wonder if google has a picture for that?